Beautiful Ugly is a formerly unidentified hard rock song by North Carolina based musician PhonoPhobic.
Search History[]
The song was originally uploaded on YT on September 8th, 2020 by a now-terminated user by the name of CrazySunshine. The song came from a 4chan /x/ thread where someone else was also looking for the song, and it was originally believed to be made around 2004.
On October 30th, 2021, the song was reuploaded on YT by Acu- Rite. In the description, Acu- Rite wrote, "Would link to OP if I could."
On March 24th, 2024, Discord user Isle found a lead on the mp3.com archive, a song called "Beautiful Ugly" by a Durham-based band called PhonoPhobic. It was written, produced, and recorded by Nate Smith. No audio of the song could be found, but the description for the song's page, Smith wrote,
"Most of us are never exactly how we want to be. Some of us cringe when we look in the proverbial mirror. I'm not beautiful, like I want to be."
On September 24th, 2024, another Discord user, Saber contacted Nate Smith and he confirmed that the song was in fact by PhonoPhobic. Smith couldn't remember the exact year the song was recorded, but he said to have wrote it from 1998-2000.
Lyrics[]
[Verse 1]
Something beating on the door, it wants to see the light of day
One of many simple truths that long ago was hidden away
Everybody has a bone or two or three, a skeleton
Open up the closet door and plunder through my life
[Pre-Chorus]
They said you had to be strong
Hide it away in place
So dark they can't see it all
Censor the pain inside
[Chorus]
I'm not beautiful
Like I want to be
Even when I dream
I'm still ugly, I'm really really ugly
[Verse 2]
Wanna say who I hate, who I love
Who I wanna kill
What I wanna take, what I don't believe
But I will
I wanna say how I'm stumbling
And how I hate myself
How I say too much, I play too much
I keep it to myself
[Pre-Chorus]
Hide it away in place
So dark they can't see it all
Censor the pain inside
[Chorus]
I'm not beautiful
Like I want to be
Even when I dream
I'm still ugly, I'm really really ugly
[Post-Chorus]
Please don't tell my mom and dad
I'm weak and hurt and always sad
Wonder if I'm just like you
Except I ponder why I don't care and I kick and I scream and I rage, and I lie
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